July 12, 2006
Seriously, I didn't like the show
my sister recommended.
I don't even know why it's her
favourite show.
But still, there's a small part of me
still wants to hold on to being alive.
I wanted to catch the first bus to go
somewhere, but since I slept at 3am
I slept past that timing.
Perhaps it's much wiser not to go,
for reasons ; there's plentiful.
Sometimes I try to tune myself to believe
that it doesn't matter anymore,
but reality kicks in and the truth is,
if it didn't matter I wouldn't
even bother spending a single
second of my life on it,
yet here I am wallowing in it
for months. I have no idea how
to make it go away.
So much so I lose my appetite
even the food I like to eat don't
seem to tempt me any longer.
Not even the 16 packs of yoghurt
and flavoured tofu in my fridge
bound to expire someday.
If any of you wants it you can
just come my house and grab it.
And not to forget my dad wants
a family dinner tonight.
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
She's going away and I don't
like it at all.
And one day I'm bound to face the fact of reality;
people can't and won't be there for me my whole life.
-nIx- @ [[12:17 PM]]
Seriously, I didn't like the show
my sister recommended.
I don't even know why it's her
favourite show.
But still, there's a small part of me
still wants to hold on to being alive.
I wanted to catch the first bus to go
somewhere, but since I slept at 3am
I slept past that timing.
Perhaps it's much wiser not to go,
for reasons ; there's plentiful.
Sometimes I try to tune myself to believe
that it doesn't matter anymore,
but reality kicks in and the truth is,
if it didn't matter I wouldn't
even bother spending a single
second of my life on it,
yet here I am wallowing in it
for months. I have no idea how
to make it go away.
So much so I lose my appetite
even the food I like to eat don't
seem to tempt me any longer.
Not even the 16 packs of yoghurt
and flavoured tofu in my fridge
bound to expire someday.
If any of you wants it you can
just come my house and grab it.
And not to forget my dad wants
a family dinner tonight.
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
She's going away and I don't
like it at all.
And one day I'm bound to face the fact of reality;
people can't and won't be there for me my whole life.
-nIx- @ [[12:17 PM]]
